| I don't understand how my own mother can't ever be happy for me when something good happens in my life.. SHe thinks we have a much better relationship then her and her mother did but its no different.. |
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| People Change because life changes them..its that simple |
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| you give him one more chance
just like the time before
and he already knows
you'll give a hundred more
until that night in bed
you wake up in a sweat
your running to the door
CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE =( it says it all. |
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| I think the hardest part of this whole year is losing sense of me.. |
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| A few months have past and so much has changed..ive grown up so much since the summer..and it makes me sad because im not who i expected to be..my dreams of becoming a designer are gone..im just taking up space at brooklyn college..and working at a cleaners..everyday of my lifee..steve has become my boyfriend noww and i love him very much..he means a lot to me even though we've only been together for 2 and a half months..i guess spending everyday with a person does that to you..ive been diagnosed with a fainting disorder..certain triggers cause blood to pool in my legs instead of getting pumped up into my brain..which causes me to pass out pretty much anywhere at anytime it happened three times two weeks ago but thank god it hasnt happened since..reality has hit me..and i realized the world basically sucks..but iwill get through it..no matter what life throws at me..and i guess thats it.. My boyfriend just got a new job..it will take him away on a ship for 2 weeks at a time..while i love him with all of my heart..i dont know how this willwork..because you cant have a relationship with someone who isn't there..this is truely breaking my heart..ive never really felt this hurt over someone..andi want to be happy for him and be proud cause its a good job..i just can't.. and i dont know what to do.. |
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